a two perfect march in the spring of '82

chapter 4.1: three1tothirty5

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 00:36:09 +0800

Proverbs 3

¹ My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,

² for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity.

³ Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.

⁴ Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. ^[a]

⁷ Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.

⁸ This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.

⁹ Honor the LORD with your wealth,
with the firstfruits of all your crops;

¹⁰ then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
and your vats will brim over with new wine.

¹¹ My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline
and do not resent his rebuke,

¹² because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father ^[b] the son he delights in.

¹³ Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,
the man who gains understanding,

¹⁴ for she is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.

¹⁵ She is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her.

¹⁶ Long life is in her right hand;
in her left hand are riches and honor.

¹⁷ Her ways are pleasant ways,
and all her paths are peace.

¹⁸ She is a tree of life to those who embrace her;
those who lay hold of her will be blessed.

¹⁹ By wisdom the LORD laid the earth's foundations,
by understanding he set the heavens in place;

²⁰ by his knowledge the deeps were divided,
and the clouds let drop the dew.

²¹ My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment,
do not let them out of your sight;

²² they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.

²³ Then you will go on your way in safety,
and your foot will not stumble;

²⁴ when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.

²⁵ Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,

²⁶ for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.

²⁷ Do not withhold good from those who deserve it,
when it is in your power to act.

²⁸ Do not say to your neighbor,
"Come back later; I'll give it tomorrow"—
when you now have it with you.

²⁹ Do not plot harm against your neighbor,
who lives trustfully near you.

³⁰ Do not accuse a man for no reason—
when he has done you no harm.

³¹ Do not envy a violent man
or choose any of his ways,

³² for the LORD detests a perverse man
but takes the upright into his confidence.

³³ The LORD's curse is on the house of the wicked,
but he blesses the home of the righteous.

³⁴ He mocks proud mockers
but gives grace to the humble.

³⁵ The wise inherit honor,
but fools he holds up to shame.

There is so much wisdom in this chapter of proverbs. I've read it over and over before today. Never has this chapter sprung up so much to life after having read it through during service.

Everything you need to know on Christian living and acting responsibly can be found in this chapter.

Everything you need to learn about success is in this chapter. From the beginning all the way til the end talks about the success of living, the success of wealth, health and position (honor).

Even being disciplined is part of that process of succeeding in life.

Of course, be it may that this could be or is the formula of success, we are that variable that fits into the equation. The others are constants. It's either we like this or that. We can't have both. Because the equation is such; do this and you will get this and do that and it will result in that.

Forget the teaching of the Lord and fail to keep His commands, and your life will not prolong and prosper.

If you do not have love and faithfulness, your name and favor is lost and not recognized.

Blow your own horn, do not fear the Lord and embrace evil/sin, you will be deprived of good sleep and health.

Failing to honor the Lord with your wealth, and your barnhouse and vats will not overflow.

I better start living like I should....

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chapter 4.0: help...

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 01:06:00 +0800

I need help.
That's all I can muster up...

Please help me...someone...

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chapter 3.9: unleashed

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 13:41:06 +0800

I don't like what's about to come out.

I can't stop it. I'm becoming the very thing I tried to prevent.

Oh God please help me. I don't know how much longer it will take.

To all who mean a lot to me, please try to understand. To the rest, it's nothing personal.

The hardest road is just around the corner.

If I withdraw, give me space. If I malfunction, give me time. If I implode, give me silence.

I have probably hurt some already. I'm sorry. I've probably disappointed some. I'm sorry.

I've probably offended some. I'm sorry.

My loneliness is my cup to bear. Please don't try to drink it for me.

My angels and demons are unleashing.

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chapter 3.8: change

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 00:05:36 +0800

You there.

What brought this on? Who are you and what have you done with that boy?

Transitions.

Metamorphosis.

Chameleon.

Will a leopard ever become a cheetah?

Change. Try it. It will do you some good.

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chapter 3.7: sixteen

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Tue, 05 May 2009 16:01:00 +0800

You would have been 16 today.

I miss you everyday. Everyday.....

At least it's one day closer to seeing you......

Happy Birthday.

Love,
Ko Ko

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chapter 3.6: musik

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 01:14:09 +0800

I feel a season coming.
It's gonna come in song.
It's gonna burst forth in chorus.
Maybe not to some. But does that really matter anyway?
So to those who matter to me, you have inspired me to hold on to my dreams.
To those who do not matter to me........you get the idea. :)

To be updated again....til then...

falalalala...la...la...la..laaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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chapter 3.5: things of the past, numbers of present day

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 10:35:30 +0800

Rawrrrrr

Much has happened in the past nine months. In fact, nine months later, TWO babies appeared from heaven, SIX marriage proposals (which means there will be SIX weddings this year!), ONE new college mate from me church, ONE new guitar in the works, TEN more months before I graduate and THOUSANDS of ringgit to be "invested" this year (ngek ngek ngek).

The past nine months have been an emotional and physically tiring ride that caused me to be jaded. Jaded may not be an accurate term to describe how I feel but it's along those lines. I want to get it over and done with. I'm tired of being torn all the time. Already, it's hard to cope with the distance and frequent absence, the demands increase. The bar sets itself higher.

How on earth does one deal with this with good attitude when time is precious? It frustrates me to a point where I'd rather not care about the call of duty.

Oh well...

Only one year left. Gotta make it a good year. Been having too many bad years in my books. Don't understand why I keep finding myself on the wrong side of things. It appears that I'm not fitting that well into the mold. Hasn't that always been the case anyway? I am a misfit but at the same time a chameleon. Go figure.

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chapter 3.4: 2 and a half words

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Tue, 17 Feb 2009 00:30:25 +0800

Woohoo!

I'M BACK!
-jon koo-

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chapter 3.3: walking down memory lane

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 16:35:00 +0800

Just got back from camp.

New experience. Never felt this way before at camp. Not sure what I felt.

But what I do know is that I walked down memory lane here.

It all started with the children service on the last night. Ps. J wanted to pray for the kids for the baptism of the Holy Spirit that night. So we were there to support and pray for them too. And so began the night.

We saw about 25 kids filled with the Holy Spirit. All experiencing Him in their unique special way. Kids that are complicated. Kids that are smarter than I was when I was 12. Kids that go through a lot in life. All experiencing God for the very 1st time in their lives. Some cried, some beamed with excitement (mostly boys), some sat down in stillness and silence to hear from God. Some were nervous, some were confused with what they felt. Some could not understand the feeling of conviction and holiness. All met God that night.

That brought me down memory lane.

I asked God to bring me to a place where I needed something to go on in life. Something which I can hold on to despite having to face much confusion. Something that I know for sure that will confirm the authencity of my call.

God brought me back to where it all started. 12 years old. My 1st encounter with Him. The first time I experience the Holy Spirit. That started it all. The passion. The conviction. The call.

I teared that night, watching all the kids being baptised. I knew that for me, it started with that. It got complicated along the way as I tried to balance my theology and understanding of spiritual things.

I knew at that point, it was what I needed to hold on to. My beginnings. The only way I can get through this phase is to look back to keep looking forward. May not work for some but it works for me.

For now.

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chapter 3.2: the winds settle

nobody@vox.com(fad32gr3y) — Thu, 22 May 2008 16:02:02 +0800

All seems quiet now.
The winds have died down. The storm is over.
All feels serene. Why is it so?

I can see the ground now. The waters have receded and the dust clears.

I know what I have to do now. And I need to do it well. Not all is lost neither is all achieved.

Though caught in the middle sometimes, I do not have to chose sides. I need to fuse both together. I will continue to journey with tenacity and not give up.

*selah*

The music resides in me. Gotta know how to bring it out. Gotta let it naturally stream. Gotta not let anybody tell me otherwise. They have their own call and I have mine. Will work hard to bring something that's of worth to the table. Gonna make You proud one day. Thus begins my cocoon phase.

*selah*

Joy of seeing others break out of their shell leaps in my heart. I hope that you will open your eyes to see beyond what you see now. There is so much more out there and I hope that you will feel the same heart beat I feel. There will always be problems within and around your world but there are also problems out there which need your attention. The 2nd mile is yours to go if you will.

*selah*

Wherever Your will takes me, I will need Your strength to go.
Whenever Your voice utters, I will need faith to believe.
Whoever You send me to, I will need Your compassion to care.
However You use me, I will need Your grace to see me through.
Whatever You ask me to do, I will need Your wisdom to teach me.

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